The Last Smile of Love in the Chair
12. The Smile in the Wooden Chair
The world felt as though it had completely ground to a halt. The air inside the house felt biting cold—not from the temperature, but from the sudden absence of the breath that usually filled these walls. Widya stood frozen on the threshold of the living room. Her magnificent white wedding gown was stained at the hem with road dust, clashing starkly against the oppressive silence.
Before her, Bapak’s beloved wooden chair rested in the exact same spot. The very spot where Bapak always sat every afternoon, waiting for Widya to come home, reading the newspaper, or simply staring out the window with a distant, faraway gaze.
"Bapak?" Widya called out, her voice little more than a whisper swallowed up by the stillness of the house.
No answer.
There was no sound of a soft cough, no rustle of flipping newspaper pages, no warm smile to greet her. Only a thick, suffocating hush.
Widya stepped forward, her legs feeling as though they were cast from lead. Aris, her husband, stood a few paces behind her, his hand half-extended as if wanting to hold her back, yet he didn't dare approach. He knew this moment belonged to Widya alone.
Every step Widya took toward that chair felt like a journey to the end of the world. She wanted to run, yet she feared that moving too quickly might shatter this strange, fragile quiet. She wanted Bapak to answer her. She wanted him to turn his head and say, "Oh, you're back already? How was the reception?"
Yet when Widya finally reached the front of the chair, her entire world collapsed.
Bapak sat with absolute serenity. His head was bowed slightly, his chin nearly brushing his chest. His hands were folded neatly across his lap—a familiar posture, one he often assumed while praying or lost in thought about Widya's future. Yet what constricted Widya’s breath wasn't his posture, but his expression.
Bapak was smiling.
It wasn't a forced smile. It wasn't the tired grin he wore after a grueling day of labor while trying to cheer Widya up. It was the purest, most peaceful, and most liberated smile Widya had ever witnessed in her life. It was a smile that seemed to say he had willingly set down every burden on his shoulders, every secret, every ache, and every responsibility he had carried for over a decade.
"Bapak..." Widya’s hand shook violently as she reached for her father’s shoulder.
She touched him.
Cold.
Widya yanked her hand back as if stung by electricity. She stumbled back a step, her breathing turning erratic. "Bapak, wake up. Bapak, it's me, Widya. I'm home. The party is over. You... you said you would wait. You made a promise, didn't you?"
Still, there was no answer. The silence only grew heavier, pressing down on her chest.
Widya dropped to her knees on the floor right beside the chair. She rested her head against Bapak’s lap, searching for the warmth that had always been there, finding only the cooling fabric of his sarong. The tears she had fought back all the way home finally broke free, spilling over in an unstoppable flood. Her sobs shattered the quiet, echoing against the walls of a house that now felt entirely alien.
"Why did you leave now?" Widya sobbed, her fingers clutching tightly at Bapak’s sarong. "Why couldn't you wait just a little longer? I wanted to tell you... I wanted to say thank you. I wanted to tell you I've found a good man. You can rest easy now."
Amidst her weeping, Widya recalled the vow she had once overheard Bapak make in the past. A promise Bapak had whispered before Ibu’s headstone, a vow she later found recorded in the letters tucked inside that wooden box:
I will protect her until she finds her new home... after that, I will follow you.
Widya sobbed harder. Bapak hadn't left because he didn't love her. Bapak left because he had fulfilled his oath. He had completed his mission to absolute perfection. He had guarded Widya all the way to the gates of marriage, ensuring she had someone to shelter her. And the moment that task was done—the moment Widya possessed a brand-new "home"—Bapak felt it was finally time to go.
Bapak hadn't died of illness, nor in an accident. Bapak had passed away because he had consciously released his breath. He had waited down to the final second until he was certain Widya was safe, and then he chose to yield to peace.
"You are incredible, Bapak," Widya whispered through her tears, her voice raspy. "You kept your promise so well. But why did you have to leave me behind?"
Aris stepped forward slowly, kneeling beside his wife and wrapping an arm around her trembling shoulders. He offered no cliché words of comfort, knowing language held no power in the face of such grief. He simply allowed Widya to pour out her sorrow.
In that room, beneath the dim glow of the lamp, the wooden chair seemed to transform into the throne of a hero. A hero who wore no cape, who possessed no wealth, yet carried a heart so vast he willingly sacrificed the remainder of his days for the happiness of his only daughter.
Widya lifted her face, gazing at her father’s features one last time. That smile... it was still there. A smile that seemed to whisper that far away, in a distant place, Aminah was waiting for him with open arms. Bapak hadn't gone into the dark. Bapak had journeyed to a place where he could finally become himself again—a young man who loved his wife sincerely, unburdened, without tears.
"You're happy now, aren't you, Bapak?" Widya asked softly, as though speaking to someone still awake.
She stroked her father’s cheek, which no longer held any warmth. She no longer tried to wake him. She understood now. She couldn't be selfish. Bapak had held on in this world far longer than he should have, purely for her sake. Now, it was time to let him rest.
Widya slowly stood up. Her face was soaked with tears, yet a fragile tranquility began to seep into her heart. She knew this farewell was the most agonizing trial of her life, yet she also knew Bapak had passed away in the most breathtakingly beautiful way possible.
She glanced toward the window. The night was growing late, yet the stars outside burned with a fierce brilliance, as though the universe itself were celebrating a reunion.
"Goodbye, Pak," Widya whispered, her voice steadying despite the lingering tears. "Thank you for everything. Thank you for keeping that promise down to the end. Now, sleep. You're finally home."
In that silent house, Widya sat beside the wooden chair throughout the night, keeping watch over her father one final time, gazing upon that peaceful smile until the first light of dawn broke, allowing herself to sink into memories she would guard forever in the deepest chambers of her heart. A chapter of her life had closed, but the love Bapak left behind would continue to burn—a guiding light for Widya to keep walking forward, even though she must now take those steps without Bapak's hand holding hers.